Maureen’s Boldest Life Initiation

After doing the Boldest Life Initiation program, I went on a 28-day cross-country road trip by myself. First the plan was drive from Calgary to Seattle to visit my brother, but then we were having the Free Your Menopause retreat in Colorado, so I decided to add that to the trip, and as the trip kept building, I got more and more excited. I got really into the planning and just getting out of the house and being free. Music blaring, windows down, hair flying back, it just felt like freedom.

When I joined Boldest Life Initiation, initially I was starting to think about retiring and was quite beside myself thinking I needed to decide what o do and what is my purpose in life. I was feeling angst and overwhelmed and confused. As we went through the get-togethers with our group, the activities and power practices and sharing built a confidence that said to me, “I don’t need to decide right now, I can retire this second if I want or I don’t have to.” I just started to trust that something would open up for me when it was the right time. And because of that, I finally felt at peace. My focus became joy. How can I experience more joy. It stopped being about having to get somewhere or have some kind of ultimate clarity.

So the pressure was gone and I got into this groove: “Okay, life’s gonna happen and I’ve got all these tools I’ve learned now - if things go sideways, I know I can bring myself back to that feeling of confidence.” And it also really helped to know that all the other babes in the group were out there cheering me on and excited about the trip too. I shared that story with a bunch of people - one of them was a project manager who’s 40 and she said, “I wanna be you when I grow up.” And I thought, “I like being me now.” I wouldn’t have said that before the program. Before, my vibes were a lot dimmer.

Now I have curiosity and a sense of adventure, I’ve come alive whereas before I was tamped down. Like peering out of something holding me down, pressing me down, thick air that I can’t see past. Now I can see clearly for miles. And I’m able to come right back to myself when I get off kilter. I feel energized. It’s because of the power practices that we learned. They bring me back to the truth of what’s real for me. I have a very distinct image in my mind whenever I feel life pushing in on me, instead of being flattened by it like before, I push back.

I’m able to sense what’s going on with myself sooner than before. In fact, before, I wasn’t really aware. The practices make me feel good about myself, they build up that fire within and it’s just a nicer place to be. I was out and about in the world before, but now it’s about how I show up and feel when I’m out and about - it’s a whole different feeling.

It’s also now easier for me to say things than ever before - sharing my feelings is so much easier now, it’s just easier to be open. Before the program I was so worried about what others would think and it was hard to speak because I was always trying to say the “right” thing. Now I say whatever is my first instinct. If someone thinks it’s too much, who cares, that’s their problem not mine. I was not that way before the program!